Thursday, 26 January 2023

New Year, New Vibes

New Year, New Vibes

Hey lovelies!!

I genuinely feel like the first two weeks of the year are just a practice run...actually the first month is a practice run because whilst I like the idea of having it all together before 1st January, it's not always possible.

Saying that, I have enjoyed being able to settle into the new year. The decision to take it slow, enjoy the smaller moments in life and learn more about myself and my habits is something I feel would better equip me for the rest of the year.

I'm hoping 2023 is all that I hope it will be - something about it feels right. I know that I'll go through things that will challenge me and push me out of my comfort zone but I'm going to channel the strength and confidence I had in 2019 when I had started a new job and somehow managed to not be terrified by all the new things that were being thrown my way. I think it's working...I mean I haven't had a breakdown yet so all in all, things are going well!

We all talk about goals and I really think they're important but not for shaming yourself into doing something but more so for the gentle push we all need sometimes to achieve the things we want most. The goals can be big or small but having them means that you can bring some purpose into your life and keep you focused to create a life that you love with the things and the people you love.

One of my goals is to read more and having challenged myself to read 23 books in 2023, I am ready to sit on my new sofa and bathe in the sunlight that streams into the room as I sink into the cushions and read the many books I have accumulated over the last two years but never got round to reading. I will get there and not out of sheer panic but more so because it is something that I genuinely enjoy even though I fell out of the habit soon after graduating from university.

Ease yourself into the year and don't worry if you haven't got it all figured out yet. It may be a new year but just take each new day as a chance for a fresh start if you need it. Please know that it is not the end if this first month of the year didn't go as planned, they rarely ever do so give yourself some grace and take it slow.

With that said, I hope you all have a great start to your new year and I look forward to seeing where 2023 takes us! Let's go!

Until next time...

Love always, Stephanie



Friday, 18 November 2022

I'm Moving!...But Also Leaving Home Is A Shock

I'm Moving!

Hey lovelies!!

So the time has come to spread my wings and fly haha. I would argue that I'm still not ready but that's a different story, although I may delve into it a little bit here.

I guess this post is about figuring out why more people don't talk about the not so pretty side of moving out from their family home. We're always overloaded with photos on social media of the brand new set of keys and empty apartment/house tours but not so much the lonely crying sessions and bad days we get from being homesick.

Now that is by no means me saying that we can't post those things but in a world where a lot of us are so confident in telling the world how we feel, why is it so difficult to find somebody who is so honest about what moving out means for their relationships, their self confidence and their newfound "freedom" of living without their family?

I've been hit with the "things will never be the same" statement on more than one occasion and not in a negative "don't leave home" kind of way but more so in a factual "now that you're moving out, things will change". In all honesty, I'm not ready for change but I understand at some point it needs to happen and I've found myself in a situation that's not all bad. In fact, I'm extremely lucky!

A new home means a chance to decorate, furnish and style the place with things that you love and that complement your taste both individually and together with someone you love. A chance to be an adult and buy your own décor because who doesn't love that! On top of that, if you are so lucky that you get to live with a special someone in a new space then you can create your own life together. I know it's not all bad but I keep thinking of what it means for my current situation and what it potentially means that I might miss out on.

I love my family so much and for someone who literally cannot live without their mum it's really hard knowing I might not be able to spend time with her every single day like I do now or anyone in my family for that matter. I keep picturing myself crying in the bathroom at the new place or bursting into tears the moment they leave me as I stand in the hallway and the door closes. Dramatic, right? That's what I mean though, does it only seem dramatic because it's not a widely recorded moment or am I really just being dramatic?

In hopes of validating my own feelings, I would suggest it's the uncertainty that makes me feel like the situation is so scary and gut-wrenching. I left home to go to university but I knew that at the end of the three years I would come back. I had that end goal knowing I would be reunited with my family but this is different, once I leave...I leave. My mum keeps telling me that "this will always be your home" and I couldn't agree more - it's where I feel safest and it's where I feel most me.

I understand that I just need time to adapt and once I set things up and make the place feel like somewhere I belong then I can begin to see myself not being so heartbroken. I would like to note that my emotions and feelings on the topic are of somebody who hasn't moved out yet hence emotions are heightened and the uncertainty is at its peak haha.

I know I will confuse you in saying this but I know that it will be alright but I just don't know how it will be alright. In other words, things always have a way of working themselves out and I will be able to get the balance right between living my "new life" and keeping hold of my "old life" but the specific steps on how to reach that point are a little blurry.

I wish I had more people to relate to or someone to guide me, that's all. Online we can follow people who guide us on parenting, clothes styling, home décor, makeup, fitness, etc. but where are those people who can tell you "it's okay to feel sad about moving out from home, here are some things I did that helped me". Why on such a common thing do I feel like we are left to our own devices? I'm telling you I have no devices and I need help hahaha!

With that said, I am looking forward to this next chapter because I can finally put my BTS album in prime position! I'm totally kidding but in a whirlwind of LED desk lights, pampas grass, IKEA furniture and kitchen cabinet door options, amongst many other things, I am excited to have a new place to call home. Sometimes it's more about counting your blessings in times where you feel lost or the future is uncertain that matters most.

I am conscious that this isn't your usual "I'm moving!!" post haha but I thought I would be honest especially for those of us who don't find these types of things so easy. That being said, please do look forward to more posts about my move and how I choose to navigate this very new life change!

Until next time...

Love always, Stephanie



Friday, 11 November 2022

New Chapters: Turning Over A New Leaf

Hey lovelies!

My birthday was just over a week ago and as with every birthday I try to be more positive for the new year of my life. What comes with growing older though is the uncertainty of what comes next and what I should be doing at this stage of my life.

New things are happening and a new chapter of my life is starting so on my birthday I realised that personally, this new year may require an adjustment period, a few struggles maybe, simply because a lot will be changing.

Whilst it may seem like I'm not grateful for these new opportunities and this new chapter in my life, something you need to understand is that those new things require pushing myself out of my comfort zone. It also requires accepting a new reality rather than being able to hold on to what was but rather what will be from here on out.

It's scary, to me anyway.

I think your mid-twenties always come with this overarching theme of ambiguity. Whether it be relationships, careers, living situations, finances or even your own identity, your twenties feel like this crazy period of time where unless you have very specific goals and dreams, it just feels like you're floating in darkness. For me, there is no other way to put it - it's just scary.

I am very much somebody who wants to have it all figured out and as I get older, I feel worried that I don't know yet and I'm worried that I haven't accomplished anything when in actual reality...I have. I tell you, the brain is a weird thing.

In the title of this blog post I highlight "turning over a new leaf". I'm not exactly sure what that means but in making this post I wanted to put forward my intentions to take change in my stride and learn to cope with it all without it being detrimental to the things I value most.

There will be some learning curves for sure and it may not be easy all the time but I want to be happy so I'm determined to find that balance and that point where things feel more than okay.

Side note: I didn't quite realise before but writing here in my own little space, it almost feels therapeutic. I don't know if anyone even reads my posts anymore but if you do, maybe you can relate. Sometimes it gets hard trying to explain how you feel to others because often it just doesn't come out the way you were thinking it and often you find it easier just keeping it to yourself. Whatever you may feel, someone else out there has probably felt it too so don't feel weird about reaching out to someone you trust and talking through it all.

Until next time...

Love always, Stephanie



Friday, 11 February 2022

Current Faves: K-Drama Music Playlist

Hey lovelies!!

I have been in a K-Drama wonderland these last couple of months and at one point I actually had four shows on the go, yes...four! That being said, I'm still quite a newbie when it comes to K-Dramas but I love them so much and thought I would share my favourite soundtracks/songs with you all.

So far I've watched Crash Landing On You, Our Beloved Summer, Nevertheless and Hwarang: The Poet Warrior Youth, and I'm halfway through Fight For My Way and I've just started Something In The Rain. Honestly, I can't get enough haha!

I have listed my favourites tracks below and I've also included some other songs that I've heard and loved but I haven't seen the K-Drama itself (yet). These are literally perfect for those moments you want to feel like you're in a K-Drama or when you want to romanticise your life a little more.

I'll stop being cheesy now and let you scroll through my list:

1. Sunset by Davichi ('Crash Landing On You')

2. Someday by Kim Jae Hwan ('Crash Landing On You')

3. Christmas Tree by V ('Our Beloved Summer')

4. Drawer by 10cm ('Our Beloved Summer')

5. Maybe If by BIBI ('Our Beloved Summer')

6. Summer Rain by Sam Kim ('Our Beloved Summer')

7. There For You by Kim Na Young ('Our Beloved Summer')

8. Red String of Fate by Kim Kyung Hee ('Our Beloved Summer')

9. Definitely You by Jin & V ('Hwarang: The Poet Warrior Youth')

10. Dream by Bolbbalgan4 ('Hwarang: The Poet Warrior Youth')

11. Como No Creer En Dios by Cristo Rey ('Hwarang: The Poet Warrior Youth')

12. Love Me Like That by Sam Kim ('Nevertheless')

13. Fall In Love by Jukjae ('Nevertheless')

14. Butterfly by J.UNA ('Nevertheless')

15. Nevertheless by Night Off ('Nevertheless')

16. Sweetbitter by RIO ('Nevertheless')

17. Fight For My Way by Hercheck ('Fight For My Way')

18. Yours by Jin ('Jirisan')

19. Sweet Night by V ('Itaewon Class')

I will probably update this a little more as I keep watching the shows I'm currenly on and maybe once I'm done, I can make a part 2 with the new shows I start!

Love always, Stephanie



Sunday, 6 February 2022

Fila FX_100 DSX Trainers

Hey lovelies!! 

It's the second part of Fila weekend on my blog and today we have the Fila FX_100 DSX Trainers. This is the pair that I have actually been brave enough to wear out and about and I love them! They are incredibly comfortable, don't require any breaking in and they add a little something to any casual outfit.

The first time I styled these out I wore my black combat trousers, a green crop and a black blazer. The look was smart casual and the shoes definitely helped to balance out the outfit for a nice Chinese takeaway night for a loved one's birthday.

Planning my outfits for a weekend away is always fun but it's even more fun when I feel that pure joy in finding other ways to style my new trainers with other items in my wardrobe. The first outfit that I actually styled with these trainers included a black turtleneck layered with a brown jumper over top, black leggings, a longline coat plus a few extra accessories (scarf and hat) to keep warm when out on a chillier day.
Honestly the possibilities are endless all year round! In Spring and Summer these basic yet classic style trainers can be paired with a dress for a more dressed-down look (as confusing as that sounds haha) or they can be paired with your favourite cosy pieces in Autumn and Winter. Any casual occasion whether that be running errands, catching up with friends or family for coffee at your favourite café or going for a nice stroll around your favourite neighbourhood you'll be set with these trainers!

If you would love to grab yourself a pair, click the link above! Just like the Fila Disruptor II Premium Trainers these are also being reduced to clear on some sites. Don't miss out!

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Love always, Stephanie



Saturday, 5 February 2022

Fila Disruptor II Premium Trainers

Hey lovelies!

It's Fila weekend on my blog and I can't wait to share my babies with you haha! Honestly, anyone who knows me understands my love for Fila. Somehow they always have the coolest trainers, the coolest collabs (*ahem* BTS) and the coolest style, plus they really have something for everyone!

Today though we will be focusing on the Fila Disruptor II Premium Trainers because they are pure beauties! The moment I saw these I fell in love and that is no exaggeration because they just looked so edgy. I especially loved the overall chunkiness of the shoe and the mini razor-like sole that helped to give it a completely different look to your average pair of trainers.

Admittedly I was worried about the fact that they were white because being my first pair of white trainers has meant that I still haven't been brave enough to wear them out yet unlike the other pair I bought in addition to these. I know that as much as I'd like to keep them pristine and bright white, it's unlikely they'll stay that way for very long unless I clean them after every wear! I promise that they will be worn soon though, I've put it in writing now haha.

In terms of styling these trainers you should have no problem at all - if anything they should help to level up an outfit! My personal go-to look would channel edgy street style by incorporating black combat trousers, a black cropped hoodie, a cross-body bag and these Fila Disruptor II Premium Trainers. Simple but put together at the same time!

If you would love to grab yourself a pair, I'd suggest clicking the link above because they are getting harder to find and are now being reduced to clear on some sites. Don't miss out!

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Love always, Stephanie



Friday, 4 February 2022

Winter Playlist 2022

Hey lovelies!!

Last time I did one of these playlist posts it was Spring 2021 and I ended up not doing one for the rest of the year. Here we are at late Winter 2022 and I've missed both blogging and these music posts so let's not waste any more time.

Here are just 20 of my current favourite songs! We have some classics, some new favourites, some Twitch streaming hype songs and a little bit of KPOP in between, enjoy!

1. My Universe - Coldplay & BTS

2. Island In The Sun - Weezer

3. Greek Tragedy (Oliver Nelson Remix) - The Wombats

4. You Got It - Vedo

5. Vixen - Miguel

6. Used To - SAYGRACE

7. All Around The World (La La La) - R3HAB & A Touch of Class

8. Astronomia - Vicetone & Tony Igy

9. Go Down Deh (Mixed) - Spice feat. Sean Paul & Shaggy

10. Mama Used To Say - Junior

11. Clementine - grentperez

12. All We Do - Oh Wonder

13. Polaroid Love - Enhypen

14. Heat Waves - Glass Animals

15. Scars - Stray Kids

16. Into The Night - Santana feat. Chad Kroeger

17. Your Love (Déjà Vu) - Glass Animals

18. Tamed-Dashed - Enhypen

19. Drawer - 10cm

20. Love Me Like That - Sam Kim

Comment your favourite songs down below, I'd like to find some new ones for my playlists!

Love always, Stephanie